Path

I exult thinking how I survived those challenges
I mourn keeping about the things I've chosen and the paths I've crossed
I hate when things go wrong
And now, everything went wrong
I hate when trees are the reasons for me to stop
But walls are the cause of my downfall

I hate when people judge me in taking my paths
But at this moment, my decisions are making their judgments come to reality
I hate when everything asunder and I couldn't do anything
But it's the primary reason for not continuing
Because I can't let myself move on taking another path

I hate when the world sees me
But now, they're everywhere watching over me
I should make things my way
Despite of the shortcomings I've experienced,
I still love when everything's fine
Settled.

I've come to a point where I need to consult myself
But I chose to ride on my pride
I chooses to be in the other way
Riding to a place where there's no set path
They said I just need to follow my heart
Simple as they say but hard to act
My mind contradict to what I'm feeling

I should not have crossed to where the path may lead
Because when my tails are covered with grasses,
I can't be able to step back
I should have go to a place where there's no path in order for me to leave a trail
I was just being stubborn

Now I'm facing this reality
I can't go back anymore
I have no reason to pursue
I can't make a step back
I feel like I'm lost
The only way I could survive
Is to continue living and taking risks
Now, I wanted to walk straight
But I need to face another darkness
Where I can face different struggles corresponding to many sacrifices
Should I continue believing that everything has its damn worth meaning?
Should I choose the left, where there's nothing right?
Or should I follow and choose the right where there's nothing left?

I may be selfish
I may be foolish
But playing in a real life game,
I can't erase my mistakes thinking that all pencils has it's own erasers
What if I'm given a pen?
I need to be mature enough
Think ahead of the many possible results of my decisions
I need someone to be my guide and lend me a hand everytime I fall
Be my key to survival
And my reason to stand up and be counted at any cost