Now what?

It would kinda be fun!
They're complete
Abundant in many things and in many ways
I'm happy for them and I'm also happy for myself for being a part of this fulfilling day
Mood swings
Later on I might be sad
I'm supposed to be active and socially interact with them but I ended up being mad
There are still many things I need to learn
Something quite reasonable to discover
These past few days I'm speechless
My mind is flying to a different world even I myself couldn't catch up to it
It's simple, I'm not feeling well
It's a sort of annoying
I'm being stubborn
I'm running out of energy just because of doing some nonsense things
I can't help it, I'm tired
I'm sleeping late at night almost everyday just for nothing
Surfing the net, pretending to be reading even though I'm not
I might just being desperate. I can't handle many things. I feel like I'm dying
There's no coordination within my body at all
I'm not a super hero. I can't even answer all of your questions
I'm not a qualified problem solver

This is strange...
Very strange...

Everything has a reason
Absolutely correct
It's happening for a specific purpose
Whether it's positive or negative, everything changes
We should always look forward for a brighter tomorrow
Tomorrow might be another day of difference
A day full of mysteries blocking our paths
We should be able to cope up with it and think back that sometimes, we can see a rainy ending given to a perfect day.

Don't Quit

When things go wrong as they sometimes will

When the road you're trudging seems all uphill
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile but you have to sigh
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must but don't you quit
Everything has a reason
Quitting is never a good suggestion
Do your best in everything you do
Someone could be your inspiration to succeed
Anyone could be a great help
But no one can be a burden because failures are part of our challenges in life
to be...
Stronger than it seem
Smarter than we think
And braver as we can be
Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt
And you can never tell how close you are
It may be near when it seems so far
So stick in the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when things seem worse that you mustn't quit!

A place like home

There's no place like home
Yes! literally but I bet,
It's just an opinion if we open up our hearts together
Not a fact
Few people are just being negligent,
Not believing in me
Many of them are being stubborn
Our mouth can't speak what are heart whispers
Our hands cant even write what our hearts desire
We're just thinking it literally
We're not fully opening our minds

My heart...
Your heart...
Our hearts...
It's the right place
It's something we can brag about
A room filled with love
It's complete
We can find our mother memories and can see through our past experiences
We can feel strange feeling
Feelings we've never felt before or feelings we have felt but we tend to hesitate
Passing cold hard road
We can feel love in it
Continuing to see the beauty of God's creations
It's not yet the end
It's not yet time to be harsh nor to be a nuisance
We are not perfect and even we always practice to be one,
It's still kinda hard to do
Accepting our limitations,
Learning from our mistakes to avoid regrets
The feelings inside it,
The emotions in it are the sizes of our souls
Try to close your eyes putting your palm in your breasts,
Listen to your hearts
It's chitchatting
Can you hear me whispering?
To conceal a bond
A chain of memories never-ending
Full of hopes, love and despair
A part which isn't a waste of time
A place to be happy and a room in a place that feels like home

Small chapters

I can't dare to think what had happened
fatal blows, disturbing chaos
We are equal
Everything is fair
People judge so badly
unmistakeably wrong
Why do I need to be hurt?
I want to take revenge to those evil people on dungeons full of mysteries
I want to fight and be strong enough to defeat others specialties
I'm jealous...
I'm not talented...
A simple animal walking around
Doing nothing important
I can't do anything.
so lame
How can I prove them I'm also strong?
They can still hope for me
Even if I'm just this kind of creature
I can also unfold mysteries without being caught
Yes! I'm right isn't it?
Even if they're taller than me
stronger than me
but I have one thing different for sure
I obtain a vast heart in a small yet persistent body
It only make sense
Although I'm different, I'm agile
Height doesn't mean a lot
Being tall doesn't prove small earthlings to stop living the life life to the fullest

back then

Dreams are hard to manage. I can't blame myself for not stopping it but being into it.

A block of bricks wrapped with cotton. Pieces of joys and sadness are imprisoned.
Whoever they go to, wherever they flow through...Their still part of my untouchable
yet fuzzy deep memories flowing beneath my head.
I can't sense what clearly I am thinking. Huge castles with thunderous background.
Griffins, serpents, dragons and undefined creatures clashing as if a nightmare. I took a
deep breath, still reminiscing the what had happened. Everything went wrong!
Good thing I can still remember few happenings.
I was walking on a limitless fortress alone passing ruined places.
Deserted.
Covered with darkness. Few steps away I saw her standing, lending me a hand as if I'm at
a critical point. She's smiling! Then I came rushing near to her. Wanting to hold her smooth
hands but as I make a step towards her, She's becoming invincible turning into ashes.
Distance separates us. She's hard to reach.
Heaven! and I can sense I'm kinda in hell. Defiant creatures guarding her. Not even a dust
could touch her.
Can we still be together? What a dream!
It feels like reality. Well, it's just a dream and will always be a dream. In my own world,
I can rule by my own.
No one can stop me...
I can do whatever I want...
I can change everything...
The best part is yet to come and I'm almost into that chapter. I'm now with her
unexceptionably holding her hands in a beautiful garden full of roses with a sweet atmosphere.
Having animals living peacefully. I started a move but I'm a huge clock appeared!
What? everything was gone.
A while ago, I was merely happy! Loving the feeling but now, hating the outcome. I knew it.
It's just a dream. The hardest part of having a dream is...Waking up. 7/17/2010

Lost love

LOST LOVE.

Within just a little moment, I had a time with you
We were laughing together
holding our hands while remembering our consequential memories
How I wish you'll stay forever
Never to vanish,never to fade
People change!
I've changed
I've made some sort of errors and mistakes
I regret it and will always be
I didn't mean to do it
Not to hurt you
...you leave me alone turning my heart into pieces
Why didn't you stay and get me out of the dark?
Although apology ca never bring back the tears that had fallen,
Do I don't deserve for a second chance?
When I was younger, crying seems to be my answer
But now that I'm older,
Crying seems to be the only way to accept your answer
How dramatic!
Don't you get it?I'm back
Starting from the very beginning
Crawling slowly like a turtle
Waiting for your "hi"
You tend to face back every time you see me
Covering your ears upon hearing my name
You discarded me from your mind
Declined me from your heart
And rejected me a thousand times
Is it hard to love me again?
To disgust me
To silently kill me and wishing me to lay down dead
Is that what you want?
I'm still hanging.
Hoping for a chance.
Not to cease but to wait.
As soon as that time would come
I will still be ready to introduce myself again.